There are days that my heart still aches for a different time, days when I remember what it’s like to be so absorbed in a moment that there’s nothing else you can see around you. Moments when I could melt from the heat raging inside of me, of a fire burning so strongly it fills my soul. A warmth like a kiss of sunlight on my skin, a breath so deep and slow and full that my eyes close and I just inhale deeply, and feel my chest rise. I remember a time before cancer when I could get lost in my own thoughts and hide from the world. I remember when flying made me feel like this. There are times when I want to remember, but other times when I think it’s best not to dwell on it too long.